Sometimes,I asked myself that how should I choose a lifestyle and which kind of life would I never regret?
Indeed,Nothing is perfect.For me,I have been to HaiNan University for two years.In these days,I found that I had done nothing.Day after day,what I can do is that going to classroom for studing,going to hall for meal and last coming back to dormitory for resting.It sounds like a drag as dry as dust .Maybe I should change my lifestyle and choose such a way of living that agrees with me. But it's a shame that I haven't found it up to now .
I don't know how to answer these quesitions that what should I try to gain and what should I have to give up? because I don't have a clear aim and a scientific and civilized lifestyle .
It is painful in my age to think the issues. But I cannot stop thinking. I have isolated me from medias for a long time to keep my mind calm and keep my heart quiet. A way that I most favorite is to sit quietly and let my thoughts flow freely like a stream. Too much pressure that from studing and others makes me puzzle.Sometimes I don't know who I am. I don't know what is human being on earth. what would happen when a person come back to nature. I like the freedom of being everywhere.Long live for freedom !
In spite of that , what I can do now is that the language of eternal silence. I have no choice but drive it even if I didn't have to like it.
I'm from HuNan that the scenery here has great charm, reminding one of the land of Guilin.It's a beautiful place that I live for 18 years .I love HuNan and miss all coming from HuNan .
And now through two years' growing ,I change a lot .For example ,I have to sleep by day and study by night. Maybe that't my life that I should to gear to.
I know I cannot choose the best,but I hope the best chooses me.Do not blame yourself when all you seem to meet is failure and defeat because every bean has its black. If you shed tears when you miss the sun, you also miss the stars. For me,what I can do is that let my life be beautiful like summer flowers and my death like autumn leaves.